Thank you to Patience Brumley for the funny card! It definitely sums up my Saturday this week. So Thursday wasn't as terrible as usual, and Friday wasn't bad, either. Then the side effects hit on Saturday. I slept most of the day, no exaggeration. I also lost my appetite. The normal chemo headache combined with allergies to create a super headache that wouldn't go away, even with meds. Finally, after yesterday's rain and a decongestant, I feel halfway human. Until I decided to get a bit of exercise. Caffeinated, jamming, and ready to go, I was booking it. Then halfway through, I crashed. I dragged my sorry butt back home to pain in my calves, worse on the side that already had the blister. So tonight, I soaked in the tub with epsom salt, rubbing the offending appendage. I did get some things done today- walked, played a game with Katie, got the Thor doll's preliminary head done, cut my fingernails so I can type better, and....blogged! Bonus, I read. I actually have a weird time with exercise. I either feel wimpy and stroll, or raring to go and overdo it. No in-betweens. I have my next CT Scan on Friday. I have come to the point that I don't really care what it shows. I don't want to go back to the toxic dose of chemo, but I'm at the lowest they'll give, so this is just my life now. Good news, though. My oncologist says that once I've gotten past the 2 weeks after my 2nd dose of vaccine, I can gather in small groups (less than 10) outside, masked. I haven't done that since October. My next vax appointment is next Sunday evening.
These verses from Phillipians 1 were part of my prayer verse that Papa God led me to this week (22-23): Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, 19for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. 20I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. 21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.
Paul was in prison, not knowing if he'd be executed. I'm not writing to churches from prison, I just didn't want to pull everything out of context, so I included the rest. Verses 22-23 sum up how I feel about my prognosis right now. I have two good options, so whichever path must be traveled is going to be OK. I struggle with the physical aches and pains, but in this, I am at peace. Whenever the time comes to depart, I will be with Brother Jesus, which is better by far. And if I am granted more time to live in the body, I will look to him to engage me in fruitful labor for his kingdom. Praise the Father, Praise the Son, Praise the Spirit, Three in One!
These verses from Phillipians 1 were part of my prayer verse that Papa God led me to this week (22-23): Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, 19for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. 20I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. 21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.
Paul was in prison, not knowing if he'd be executed. I'm not writing to churches from prison, I just didn't want to pull everything out of context, so I included the rest. Verses 22-23 sum up how I feel about my prognosis right now. I have two good options, so whichever path must be traveled is going to be OK. I struggle with the physical aches and pains, but in this, I am at peace. Whenever the time comes to depart, I will be with Brother Jesus, which is better by far. And if I am granted more time to live in the body, I will look to him to engage me in fruitful labor for his kingdom. Praise the Father, Praise the Son, Praise the Spirit, Three in One!